One of God's Greatest Gifts is the Gift of Friendship

Today has been a good day, actually this whole week has been good... I've worked every day this week (only 30 min today though LOL)... the 30 min today was for the new school district I just got hired in... I didn't teach, but I was a para for the morning when the kids arrived by bus for school.  Even though there are a lot of things still going on in my life and unknowns, I kinda feel more in control of my life for the first time in awhile...  I've been working pretty steadily, and I already have a summer job!  So maybe the dream of owning a house isn't as far off as I thought it would be after all.

After my 30 min of work I headed to a local mall to meet up for brunch with a friend and her two little cuties! Before it was time to meet I went to a bookstore that is about the close, looking for some education books... of course they were pretty much all picked over...but right next to the "education" section was the baby book section...and man there were a lot of those books... so I tortured myself for awhile looking at all the cute stuff.  The thing about me is that I love to plan for the future and I try and get prepared for everything upfront as much as possible...there was this one book I wanted to get (but I didn't) that was called the baby bump journal...and it was in the shape of a preggo belly... and it had a place to put pictures of both mom and baby throughout the pregnancy and thoughts and what happened at various appointments... All these things I want to experience so badly! :)  I did however get YOU Having a Baby by Dr. Oz and co...  It is a book I have checked out from the library twice...and it was 1/2 off because the store was closing... so I"m glad I have that book.

After my purchase at the bookstore, I went over to Panera Bread to meet my friend for some lunch.  I had a great time, and even got the chance to give her daughter some pennies to throw in the fountain in the mall. :)  I can't wait till we have our own little monkeys to corral.

When I got home, I finally got work some more on my scrapbook...from a trip I took to Europe 6 years ago! To have some background noise going on, I turned on episodes of "One Born Every Minute"... It no longer scares me to watch these women and their delivery stories...but the show still makes me cry...and I love hearing the background stories of the couples... One couple tried to have babies for 17 years!  Another had gone through 4 miscarriages (one ruptured one of her fallopian tubes) and was now having twins!  Such miracles!

So I was feeling kinda blah again... I'm still trying to be patient... I'm taking my progesterone to make myself have a period...and my prenatal and my one pills that make me all poopy...(sorry if that's TMI).  I haven't gone back to the dr. yet, but hopefully soon we can get started back up soon with all the fun shots and ovulation meds... But I was feeling kinda blah and sorry for myself... b/c conceiving is so easy for some, why is it so hard for us?  I know we aren't the only ones and I know for sure that we haven't gone through as much as others have...but it's so tough sometimes just being patient and watching everyone else around us having their first, second or third children...and it's not an envious thing at all... I am so happy and grateful that they are so blessed...it's I want to know what that feels like so bad...and part of it is I know what it feels like to have life inside...but I want to have an outward sign/product of our love...living, breathing...  I know parenthood isn't easy but it's something I think we are ready for... but I need to keep reminding myself that it's not what I think I'm ready for...but it will happen when God thinks we are ready.  I've been praying every night recently to Saint Gerard (Patron Saint of mother's and ones who want to be) for our little miracle... I feel like I'm in a better place, and I'm getting the hang of eating healthier...doesn't mean I'm prefect, but I feel more  prepared and more dedicated to it.

While I was thinking about this, my friend sent me a quote on Facebook...and it spoke to me so much...at the moment I really needed... it's almost as if God spoke through my friend... and it hasn't been the first time I've encountered something like this...it's just cool...it lets me know that I'm okay, that I'm not forgotten and that I need to keep trusting...I hope I don't have to wait 15 or more years...but what will be will be.

Here is the quote:
"On this day, God wants you to know... that God will give you everything you need once you are ready to receive. God is abundant and is only waiting for you to make yourself ready to receive what you truly need. Think now what 
can you do to make yourself ready?"




Till next time...

A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to Work on Friday...

Not so much... On the way to a sub job Friday morning my car decided to jerk...it was fighting so hard to not shut off... Each intersection I had to stop at a light was a little bit terrifying to me... but the worst was a 4 way stop intersection with crossing guards!  I thought for sure that my car was going to die, and I quickly panicked as I entertained visions of me getting out and pushing my car across the intersection.  Luckily that did not happen and I offered up a quick prayer and made a deal with my car that if it lasted about 2 more minutes I would pull into a gas station and turn it off... It turns out my car is a nice car, and she held out long enough to do just that.  First I had to call the school I was subbing and to let them know what happened and that I would be late (thank God they know me well, and it was the school I did my student teaching at)... Next on the agenda...call my dad, oh did I mention that the car was smoking?  The water levels were fine, so I didn't know what was going on.  Luckily  my dad was home and he came to the rescue...he brought me to school (which was just down the road from where I pulled over)... The principal and the office manager were out greeting kids as they arrived at school and my dad, in his big honkin' F250 diesel truck pulls up behind all the cars in line dropping off their kids...dwarfing them severely.  Needless to say the principal and office manager were getting a kick out of me being dropped off at school by my dad and were laughing as I jumped out of the cab of the truck.  After much worrying during school, I was happy to receive a call from my dad saying that all the car needed was so more oil and some tranny fluid...and all has been well every since!  But all that car drama made the day pass by really quick.

Friday night Matt, mom and I went out to have dinner... Saturday I was spoiled some more by being taken out to eat for brunch...and later on I had a get together with some friends and we went to this awesome Japanese steakhouse.  Then we ended the night listening to a live band a a bar and dancing and having a couple of drinks before heading home for the evening...  When we got home we popped in a movie and I promptly fell asleep off and on during it...sigh...I used to be able to stay up past 2am without  a problem...when did I get so old?  oh yea, I've been working a lot and have had a lot of stress...I guess that mildly explains it LOL.

Well, until next time!

Being Humbled

Ok, so have you ever had an experience where you truly feel like you see Christ in someone else? Especially a stranger?  I had one of those experiences today...

I was getting off the freeway, listening to Sacred Heart Radio (Local Catholic Radio Station) and it was talking about giving of our time, talent and treasure... and then a priest was talking about how you don't ever see a Hearse pulling a U-Haul (which is funny, because my priest at BTOC has a whole homily surrounding that)...and how we shouldn't be so attached to our material possessions, but it's okay that we have nice things too... as long as they don't become a deterrent to spending time with family and practicing our faith...  And honestly, I was kinda in an annoyed mood (as I usually am) because here I was, my only day off...and I spent it running errands and driving into the city to pick my hubby up..and I didn't get to do the things I was planning on doing today, like usual.  It seems like all I have time for is to do things for others and put out any potential "fires"... yea it wasn't a pretty attitude...  So I'm listening to this radio spot...and we do give of our time with the youth and recently have been able to make an offering at church... and as I am coming to the end of the off ramp, an older gentleman is holding a sign at the end of the ramp that says: "homeless and hungry...anything will help and God Bless"

Now, I love being able to help out the needy... I used to volunteer in soup kitchens and later in life have made sandwiches for those in need...they are just like you or I...and honestly everyone has gone through hard times... whether it be monetary, spiritually or relationship wise...  But I don't know why, but I just cannot bring myself to look in the eyes of these poor souls at the street corners... Yet I have no problem helping those in need if I was volunteering at a place...and it's something I am deeply ashamed about... and I had this Catholic radio station up loud in the car...and I was contemplating this, and kinda beating myself up about this...b/c this man was no different that you or I, he had simply just fallen on hard times.  I found myself inwardly panicking as the cars in front of me took a free right, one by one moving me closer and right next to the man with the sign (I was turning left).  I tried to rationalize why I was feeling the way I was... I didn't want him to harass me (I've had some pretty scary encounters in the past), I hate to say no (I didn't even have a granola bar to give this man let alone a dollar)...  While I was rapidly processing all of these thoughts in my head, the man started yelling something... so I turned the radio down... and I smiled in his direction; but I still could not bring myself to fully look at the man in the eyes...

Then he started yelling/talking again...and I thought he was talking to the people in the car behind me....but I was shocked as he walked towards my car (still keeping his distance)... and all he wanted me to know is that he was praying for me... me... the person who was all but rejecting him fully... in that moment I felt a portion of  what Peter must've felt upon denying that he knew Jesus...even though I truly didn't have anything to give him (and I can't help everyone, I realize this, nor is it my place to), I couldn't even acknowledge him by genuinely looking at him in the eyes and smiling at him.  In that moment, I saw Christ in that man...and who knows if he really said a quick little prayer for me (that's not for me to know), but the fact that he had nothing, and was asking for food/support...made a point to come close and pointed to me to say, "hey, God Bless you, I am praying for you."  It made a big difference... I turned that corner a different person than the person who stopped at that light.  I began to tear up at the experience...and I know some of you reading this post won't understand, and can't understand... it was my experience to have...but I hope everyone will get to experience the power that small acts can have to humble yourself... I said a quick prayer for the man as well as I continued down the road to pick Matt up from work...and everything that I had been grumbling about prior to getting on that offramp didn't matter anymore...it was completely forgotten...

I just wanted to share that...

I hope everyone is doing well...

God Bless!

Yummy Yummy Yummy in My Tummy

I must admit that I am having fun researching different recipes for dinner each night... It is actually pretty easy to find some really good recipes that are okay for those living with PCOS.  Tonight I took a couple of recipes and put them together.... What did I have?

Pork Loin chops  (boneless) cooked in chicken broth and sprinkled with cinnamon and chives.
For the sides I crushed up some garlic and chopped up some Broccoli and cooked it in the oven at 450 degrees for 20 minutes, then I put shaved Parmesan cheese over the top...so good!  Finally I cubed up some yams and sliced up an apple and put it in a pot with a little bit of butter, cinnamon, brown sugar, honey and lemon juice.
It turned out really nummy, even Matt ate it! :)

This week has been going well, teaching has been fun, since I've been at my favorite school so far this week :)  Tomorrow is a day off to take my mom to the doctor's and do some running around.

Thursday (my birthday) I will be at another school and Friday will return to the school I was at today and yesterday.  So many people keep saying, "you're here again?"  sometimes I just feel like saying back to them, "well if I got a job, you wouldn't see me so much... or how about hiring me here and then it'd be normal that I was here all the time." Oh well, I am being patient... Partly because I know I am getting a lot of sub jobs... I got called for 4 more today!  They won't be until May, but someone is thinking about me...and that means a lot.

I finally got my birthday happenings figured out... Matt is taking me to this Japanese Steakhouse he heard a lot about from his coworker... so that should be interesting.  It's one of those places where they cook the food right there in front of you, but it's cheaper than Bene Hanna's :) Then we are going to go listen to some music :)

That's all for now...

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I can't believe 998 people have looked at my blog! :)  It's kinda cool :)

Ok, so a lot has been going on lately...I'm still trying to get over the stinking cold...although I do a lot better in the afternoons compared the mornings... Mornings are still a little rough...

But I woke up today feeling a little better and decided that I was feeling well enough to attend a tree planting volunteer activity... It was an event I worked on for awhile to get teens and families from our church to go and do...and well we didn't think we were going to have any, and there wound up being 9 of us!  One family we hadn't met before, and they were just awesome!  The  mom had a lot of energy...and she named all of her boys after angles in the bible (Michael, Gabriel and Raphael)  I hope she is able to come back in a couple of years and help us out with youth ministry... she and her hubby used to be youth leaders at different parishes in Boston when they were younger.  Then another kid came, a junior and we had never met/seen him before!  His mom wound up grabbing a bulletin last weekend and saw that we were offering this activity (and chance for community service hours) and he signed up!  I really hope he comes back and joins us for a life night because he would be a great edition to the group of teens we already have!  Super nice guy. But the best surprise came when we arrived at the park and met up with the group organizing this event... One of the other groups that were there was from our old parish and we did youth  ministry at!  I got to see some of my old youth group leaders/friends and it was great to run into them... So it was kinda like my "old" life collided with my "new" life... and it was kinda cool b/c it was the best of both worlds.  I wouldn't be who I am today and with the activities I do with the youth if it weren't for being a part of my old parish's youth group programs...So I was a happy Beth :)

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As far as my fertility stuff has been going... my body is just being weird again!  My CM has been very wet lately (past two days), but never quite goes into the fertile stretchy kind...my Basal temps have been steadily rising, but still not in the 97 degree range...all 96...but they are hovering between 96.2 and 96.82...I'm at a crossroads as to what to do... I haven't had my period since late January...and I have some progesterone pills to take that will make me have a period...but if I "happen" to be pregnant through some miraculous fluke...I don't want to do anything to harm that...trying to get pregnant is so confusing!

I've been hearing a lot about this stuff called Preseed as well...it's a lubricant that is supposed to help the sperm travel up... has anyone used it?  Had success with it?  

I can't go back and see my OBGYN until I pay my bill there...which unfortunately I can't do for awhile...well maybe by the end of this month?  I dunno...it's so frustrating!  They actually sent me a letter telling me I couldn't receive any more treatment from them until then...which is fair...I had even stopped going way before then anyways... but I also don't think it's fair with what they bill me either...  Like when the normal doctor isn't there, so the fill in doctor has to do the ultrasound and she can't even find my ovaries!  Then hurts me so badly I can barely sit/stand/walk for two days... and then tells me to come back in two days when my doctor gets back...  Yet the office charges me again b/c of the fill in doctor's incompetence.  I dunno...

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so this week was a little tougher following the PCOS diet stuff... I did the best I could, but it was Matt's birthday...I had to have some of his cake...  Although I did pay for that (sorry if that is TMI)  But I am pretty much back on track right now... I didn't even eat the after dinner mint from dinner last night!  It's tough learning how to eat all over again...sigh...and it's even tougher to eat how you are supposed to when you don't have the proper food at home to do so...But I have to admit, the book : The Ultimate PCOS Handbook is an excellent resource to have.  I am learning so much...  PCOS affects so much, even things I didn't think of...it's been a great read so far.

Ok well that is it for now... I hope all are well!

Beth 

Happy Birthday Matt!

So I'm heading off to sleep...it's been a very long day complete with a house inspection done by the rental company, going to the grocery store, turning in my finger prints to the other district I just got hired by (and receiving my badge!) and then to the library and home for a quick nap while waiting for Mr BDay boy to come home... 10 min later family arrived!  It was a very fun night and great time to spend with all...

Now I'm off to take a shower, and hit the sack before I turn into a pumpkin...  I teach art all day tomorrow at an elementary school.... :)

Happiness is.... making a difference to one of my students...

Today I subbed at the school I did all my student teaching in (the same as yesterday)... I was a little concerned about today going into it...  I was not feeling 100% this morning (still am fighting a cold), and this class is particularly known for being a "tough" class...  However, the story was much different!  The class was completely awesome for me today!  For the most part everyone followed the rules, everyone got their work done and I got to feeling a little bit better as the day went along... I am still not all the way better...but a lot better than I was this morning and certainly better than last night! Also one of the kiddos drew me a picture that said: "Mrs. Compton is the greatest Substitute EVER!!!" hehee  I really gotta start a scrap book of all the pictures I get, then when I feel like I'm not important or making a difference, go and look at all the cute pictures kiddos have made for me over the years.  It's totally a mood booster!

After I got home, I helped my mom with some stuff, took her to the grocery store and then made some nummy dinner...  It took forever to cook this dinner...the recipe lied...it takes like 2 hours from prep to finish...but it was worth it, even Matt and my mom liked it... It's another recipe that is PCOS friendly...and part of my Lenten Sacrifice. (to stay away from sugar/stick to the PCOS diet) I even found a pizza recipe for tomorrow's dinner!

What is so important about tomorrow's dinner?  Tomorrow is my hubby's 32nd birthday!  And as explained before, his brother and my sister-in-law and their kiddos are coming over.... they're even spoiling us and bringing dinner and cake for Matt!  Matt's favorite food in the whole wide world is pizza, and I was kinda bummed because I didn't think I was going to get to partake...but as it turns out, the grocery store carries wheat thin crust pizza (yay, no English Muffin pizza's) and I bought some low fat cheese, and sauce and I have pineapple and turkey sausage to go on it...

It is hard sometimes to keep in mind all the odds and ends about what I can and can't eat... I know that I need to stay away from sugary stuff and things like white rice, pasta and potatoes... and eat more whole wheat (which I've always done), fiber and fruits/veggies...  At first I thought it was going to be really hard for me to stay away from all the sugary foods...because to be honest, I was eating something "sugary/sweet" a day...and I"m not talking like a donut or a huge piece of cake...but like two-three Oreo cookies...  sadly, because of my PCOS and the fact that my body can't process sugar correctly (and it's killing my hypothalamus) even one or two Oreo cookies can do me in...  This doesn't mean I haven't had anything sugary at all...but I'm keeping it in perspective...  last Thursday I had an oatmeal rasin cookie...not a healthy thing, but I didn't go for the PB cookie or Chocolate chip cookie...(which is what I really wanted)... I'm quenching my need for sweet stuff by eating fruit yogurt... Chobani Greek Yogurt is so great!  I used to think I hated Greek Yogurt, b/c all the ones I had tried just really sucked...but this stuff is actually pretty good... especially the peach, strawberry and Pineapple kind.

The great thing about not eating so much sugary stuff is that I am noticing more and more how good and sweet veggies and fruits are again!  I never knew how having so much sugar could drown out the goodness of other naturally sweetened foods... The other night I was making mint brownies for the youth group and I was frosting them...no I normally don't like frosting, like at all...EXCEPT for the store bought frosting you find in a can in the cake asle at the store...I licked one finger and I literally said "YUCK"... it was way too sweet... and that before was "just right" before....  so yea, it's been interesting discovering foods and trying out new recipes.

Ok, tomorrow is our inspection...I have about 5 more hours of work left to do tonight... Matt is exhausted as well, he's been working over time the past two days and he's just completely out of gas...so am I... but things have to get done... then maybe I can have my nephew walk up and down my back tomorrow? :)

Longest Day EVER!

But... despite coming home to a bunch of cat puke on the floor.. .today went pretty well.  My day started at 6:30am where I got up, got ready and headed out the door by 7:00am to head up north to a school district training that was 40 min away (I just recently got hired there to be a substitute teacher)...  Spent first part of the morning 8-11 in the training... then got back in my car..rushed back down to the other district I usually sub in... grabbed a quick lunch and sat for the rest of the afternoon at school... why did I sit?  Well I didn't really sit the whole time... but the teacher I was subbing for has a student teacher, and so she taught the class... I am just hired for "legal" reasons..which is nice...but can sometimes be boring.  I spent my afternoon going through all the library bins in the classroom and made sure they were all sorted properly... then I found the Scholastic Book Order catalogs and put those together for her students... So I sorta kept busy. :)

But I also picked up another Sub job for a teacher at the same school tomorrow!

After work I had to get my finger printing done for my other school district...and I was so fortunate because I knew the employee there!  We had gone to middle school/ high school together... it was great catching up with her, she even gave me the finger prints for free!  I am so blessed!  That was one less thing I had to worry about... I still have to pay the state for processing my finger prints (about $50!).

This past weekend I was spent with me being sick (don't worry though, I still went to the St. Patrick's Day dinner/dance for my parish)... I wasn't so bad on Saturday...but Sunday I felt so dizzy and clammy.  I decided that it would be best if I stayed home from church and youth group that evening.  Today I still felt a little crummy, but it's getting better.. Sudafed is my friend.

Wednesday is a big day...  Our house is getting inspected by the rental company... one of the many reasons I will be SO glad when we own our own home...it's so disruptive having to stop everything and prep for an inspection every 6 months...it's also my hubby's 32nd birthday on Wednesday!  I still haven't gotten him anything, but I think I will be giving him a choice of two different things...it just sucks right now b/c what I want to get him, we can't really afford, and I have to make smart choices too...I'm also excited for Wednesday because Matt's brother and my sister-in-law and their kiddos are coming over to celebrate Matt's bd...and I get to meet their new doggy!   So I have some great things to look forward to, I just need to get past the inspection and clean the house first...

Okay Dokey... Gotta go help my mom with cleaning her area... make dinner and get Matt...then back to cleaning all while watching the bachelor...(yes I watch the Bachelor...what of it?  I already know who he chooses)

Planning Meeting

Beth & I both attend mass at a very small parish in Woodinville. Ground breaking on the new building hasn't even happened yet, that's how small/new it is. Last night's meeting for Life Teen/Edge was another reminder about how excited I am to have a proper building in place.

No only was the Core team meeting, but so was choir, confirmation, social justice, RCIA and at least one other group. Life Teen ended up meeting in a very small room... It worked though. We have things planned for this Sunday's talk, which will be on St. Patrick. And we talked a little about a conference this summer at Gonzaga. Hope that goes smoothly. I think the teens could benefit from a large Catholic conference setting.

I'm thinking for my St. Patrick talk I will discuss how he brought Guiness and whiskey to the people along with a pot of gold... What? Is that really so wrong?

The Comfort of Fur Babies

No, I haven't given birth to Chewbacca or Big Foot... I'm going to bore you all to death by talking about my kitties! :)

I have two kitties, one is named Marble, the other is Twink... Now Marble is a very loyal, territorial and loving kitty... she could lay in your lap forever if you'd let her...and if I'd let her, she would lick my face non-stop.  My other kitty, Twink is a very unique cat; I think anyways. :)  He has such a cute personality... he's very entertaining and very laid back..I wouldn't describe Twink as a loving/lap cat... there are times where he will come up and greet you and rub against you...unless he needs/wants food...then he will be lovely until you get food...  Both are pack animals, they follow me or Matt wherever we seem to be, and freak out whenever they are shut out of a room where we are at. LOL

So why am I writing this entry on them? Well it's more about Twink... I have been feeling really sick all day... I spent most of the day in bed... I got up, started my day and started to develop a migraine headache...by noon, I was back in bed...I was nauseous, dizzy and the pressure in my head just down right sucked...So I laid down, Marble was already on the bed, curled up...but she made room for me and promptly curled up tightly next to me again.  Then, just as I was about to fall asleep Twink jumps up and was all lovely.  He came and butted his head against mine (gently though), purred loudly, flopped over and used my arm as his pillow and would get up and rub himself on me...he couldn't get enough of my petting...Then he got up, and I thought he was going to leave... nope, he burrowed underneath the covers with me, and snuggled up right next to me, used the inside of my elbow to lay his hand on, and kept purring loudly!  He laid like that and fell asleep, purring and he would twitch with his dreams... it was so cool b/c I normally don't get those opportunities with Twink...I think he helped me feel better, and he knew I was sick... :)

I did feel better, and my headache was almost gone by the time I woke up at 3:45pm... I"m thankful for stormy afternoons with naps with my kitties. :)


Now I just need to get ready for the planning meeting tonight. :)

Later Taters!

And So it Begins...

Today is the start of Lent... Happy Ash Wednesday Everyone!  right now I am starving...  in case you didn't know on Ash Wednesday you either fast, or eat 3 small meals and refrain from snacking in between or eat two small meals and one large one...  I am going for the eat as little as possible route... LOL  I'm trying to offer it up!

I only ate once today, at lunch... I had a Yves Soy Bologna (which is surprisingly VERY good and I couldn't tell the difference) sandwich and some celery sticks with PB on them...  The bread was whole wheat and the sandwich had low-fat cheese on it as well as some lettuce... and mustard and little bit of mayo...  All of which are  okay for the PCOS diet plan... so far, so good... it's the rest of the week that will be challenging...

I'm about to go pick Matt up so we can go to Ash Wed. services and then eat dinner!  (do you see where my thoughts are right now?)

I spent the day helping a friend revise and edit his paper for an English Final... I miss being in school... and editing is actually kind of fun... it just takes forever... before I knew it, my day was practically over with!  Where does the time go?!

I hope all are doing well!

Finally feeling a little more normal?

This past weekend was amazing!  The retreat Matt and I helped to lead was awesome! I think all the teens in the Confirmation group had a great time as well!  Which was great, is I too, and Matt I believe felt a retreat "high" after it was over...  It's inspired me to really dive deep into this season of Lent.  It took me awhile to figure out what I wanted to do for Lent... For awhile I thought that I would give up eating meat for Lent...but then I realized that we are going to a St. Patrick's Day Dance on Saturday and I already ordered the Corned Beef... plus... not being able to eat Corned Beef and Cabbage on St. Pat's day... (yes, I know it's a feast day, therefore it "frees" me from my Lenten obligation...but I still wouldn't eat it) is so sad to me...  Maybe next year... So...what I'm going to do, since there are 40 days (plus the Sundays) of Lent, I am going to follow the PCOS diet... this will not only help our chances in conceiving, but hopefully the way of eating will become a habit...and eventually spill into our every day eating...also having Matt benefit from the meals as well.  I am going to head to the library tomorrow to check out some books...but in the mean time I've been reading this awesome blog I came across... http://divapcos.wordpress.com/  So far I like her meals, and I appreciate the things she has to say on her blog...  Maybe some day I will be as cool as her! LOL

****TMI SECTION COMING UP... JUST WARNING YA****


So now I am on day 50 of my cycle... I haven't had a period since I was in Chicago visiting my friend... I haven't been able to afford my meds or go to the doctor right now...  Plus, they won't see me right now b/c I owe them some money... I've been having cramps, and according to fertility friend I ovulated last Thursday...however my temperature still fluctuates a bunch.  I had a huge pain in my lower right ovary the other day... the kind where you can't move or else it tweaks it... this lasted for about 5 minutes...but seemed longer b/c I could only lay/sit in one position on the couch...If I tried to move, I would cry out in pain.  NOT FUN...  I'm hoping that when I follow the PCOS diet that I will feel more energized and will see a difference. I also need to start exercising more...aka I need to walk.  I really wish I had a friend who would consistently walk with  me... I used to go on walks with one of my friends once a week, but then she moved far away... :/

It's so frustrating... Society would say "you should be responsible and pay off your bills/buy a house/get a perm. job first before getting pregnant"...and yes part of me is terrified if we can afford a child and all of that, but I believe that God will see us through... One of the reasons we did stop going to the doctor right now was because we are trying to buy a house.. .once I can pay off my one credit card, we can get our financing back and do that...  It's like that commercial that is on the radio that goes something like this: "Part of you is worried about your job, But all of you wants a baby.... Part of you is worried about your mortgage payments, but All of you wants a baby...."  I just feel so responsible for why we don't have the things we want...  I have been working a lot lately, which has been great and Matt was even able to make bonus last month!  Hopefully my mom will be able to start working soon...

Some great news though!  My friend Annie and her husband Tony had their baby girl today!  They are going to be such wonderful parents!  I am so happy for them!  Congrats and welcome to the world baby Monica!

Hope everyone is doing swell.

Sometimes I wish...

That I could magically lengthen the days so I could do everything I need to do by this weekend!  I'm already exhausted...

This week has been full of blessings.  On Tuesday I got called at 10:30am to go sub at the school I did all my student teaching in.  While there, my mentor teacher told me that she requested me for 5 days and later while in the faculty lounge, another teacher asked if I was available to sub today and tomorrow for her!  Heck yes! The only job I had previously scheduled before this week... was on Friday.  I also got called later in the day Tuesday and had another request put in for me at another school...  So Yay for jobs!  I am now working almost every day this month!

As if that wasn't enough... I got home and found a voice mail waiting for me!  Another school district finally wanted me to be a substitute for them!  After much phone tag I was finally able to get a hold of the sub coordinator and we set up a time to do paperwork and orientation next week and the week after!  How blessed am I?  After applying in 19 different districts... and a year later, I am finally getting called!  This district is a little bit of a drive, but it's an opposite commute, so traffic shouldn't be that bad...  I'm more excited to see how another district operates.  First step this, next step getting my own classroom next year?  Who knows, we shall see!

This week I've been keeping busy with retreat prep... This weekend Matt and myself and some other leaders from our church are leading 15 teens who will be confirmed in April (?) on a retreat!  This is the first retreat I have gone on since becoming a member of the parish we are at.  Tuesday night we had a 2 hour skit practice... tonight Matt, mom and I went to confession, so we could ready our hearts (plus it had been waaaaay too long since I had been)... I love that feeling you get after you pop out of the confessional...like tingly and light as a feather.  God's Grace is great!

Although I love the fact that I have had jobs, it means that I've hardly had any time to get my "assignments" done for the retreat...  I have typed up a couple of prayers and some of the song sheets...but man... I am so behind.  I am also giving a talk that I haven't even begun to prepare for!  Every night we have had something going on, and we haven't been getting back home until 9 or 9:30pm every night...I still have to pack! oh well.. all will be okay... I can nap on the retreat... right?    RIGHT? :)

Anyways... I only have to survive tomorrow and the weekend... no biggie :)